Is this creepy (in a bad way)?

I said to my friend's parents that i'm gonna apologize for my attempts of suicide and for yelling at my friend because of jealousy (thats why i wanted to kill myself becuz she never deserved it and i can't ever forgive myself) when i control my anger which was 3 months ago i said that to her parents. and my parents want me to apologize too and now im more in control of my anger than before and i'm a man of my word but when i told my parents that i want to apologize soon they're like yeah yeah whatever. so i figured i got to do this without my parents (my parents wanted to meet her parents in person) completely solo. but i'm a bit nervous but i wrote a letter explaining that if they want to contact me personally they call my cell and that i'm wiling to apologize in person. thats all i wrote. and im nervous about sending it in even tho i have left my friend alone for a numerous amount of months to give her space and im curious if iits creepy (in a bad way).